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Posted: November 25, 2015 in Uncategorized

The Thing All Women Do That You Don’t Know About –


Stress Eating

Posted: November 25, 2015 in Uncategorized
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This past week I have learned that when I become stressed I turn to comfort foods. I gorge on pizza, garlic fingers, poutine, potato chips and soda. That is not good for my body or soul.

Monday started my new routine of clean eating, praying and meditation. Tonight’s snack


Carrot sticks, bell pepper strip with two tablespoons of Greek yogurt mixed with herbs.

How do you make yourself feel better when going through emotional turmoil?

Have you ever noticed how much women are judged by their appearance?

I can remember the first time I was told I was fat. I was 5 years old. An older boy started teasing me based on how fat he thought I was. This would begin a lifelong struggle with my weight. I started my first diet by age 8.

I have always been the oversized person in both height and weight. I was 5’6 by the time I was 12 years old. I stood out to say the least. Within my family I was the tall fat child while my siblings were in the normal range.

I look back at pictures and I never was all that fat but I was just big. I was taller than my peers and broader than my peers. By the time I reached grade seven I just wanted to disappear. Physically I began to disappear. It did not make the comments about my appearance stop.

I kept growing taller with a smaller waistline. When youth couldn’t tease me about my weight, it was my acne covered skin that became the point of redicule.

The teasing was not just at school but within my home as well. My siblings and my father liked to point out my weight and skin problems. By the time I was 15 I was 5’12 and 130 lbs. As my grandmother recalls, you were over weight at 130 lbs but you lost it.

In High School I was so thin you could count my ribs. I maintained a weight of 100 to 115 lbs. I would eat one meal a day but allowed myself to drink as much milk as I wanted. I was always hungry and tired but it was better than being fat. Classmates would then comment that I looked like a boy. There was no stopping the teasing. I would fix the flaw and something else would be wrong. At 6 feet tall it was impossible to disappear.

I went to university hours away from my hometown. I wanted to leave that place and never look back. I used to wear long flowing jackets to hide myself. In University I slowly opened up and allowed myself to not be completely hidden.

I however had remained my own worst enemy. I used to walk the university grounds late at night, trying to burn off those extra calories, trying to burn off those negative thoughts.

To be continued. ….

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Posted: November 21, 2015 in Uncategorized

Depression is a Trip –


Posted: November 21, 2015 in Uncategorized

The ones we love are often the ones who know how to hurt us the most.

At least I have faith and makeup.

Life will never be as hard as it was for Job and other people of the Bible.

The look from crying can be fixed with the wonders of the right concealer, highlighter and makeup application.

The heart  will mend with time.

The Scapegoat – LIGHT’S HOUSE

Posted: November 20, 2015 in Uncategorized